It has been one of those days. Or maybe it has been one of those weeks. As I'm sitting here nursing my sweet little one, I'm struggling to remind myself of where my joy and hope lie. If it was in circumstances I think I'd give up. As I posted on my facebook page I heard yesterday that a body pulled from a pond on Monday was a friend of mine from high school. She has four children and I feel so much pain for them and for the rest of her family. Rest in peace, Heather.
Last week we had our sixth month follow-up visit with the developmental specialist. I was hoping to hear more of a detailed report on where Ryan falls on the autism spectrum, but he is still too young to tell. Each day I am reminded that having a child with special needs means I have to adjust my expectations. He is improving in many areas -- less self-abuse and screaming for one. He still delights in sensory "experiences", meaning making messes. He found my spices today and dumped them all over the pantry. He also took the "kid" laundry basket and unloaded clothes all over the staircase, dumped a pile of tiny rocks in the entry, and emptied a bag of Easter eggs waiting to go back to the church all over the play room. Aaaaahhh. Mommy needs a vacation! A cute (11 year old) friend of the family asked me yesterday if he is "optimistic". It took me a second before I realized what she meant. :)
Seriously though, all of us have days and weeks and sometimes months of difficulties. Where do you find your strength?
The Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.
-- Exodus 15:2
2 comments:
I love how you said that your joy isn't found in circumstances. A lesson I have learned myself just recently. Learning how to be content in the circumstance, not when it changes. Such a hard lesson to learn but one that I am glad I have learned.
I LOVE the Mercy Me song "Bring the Rain" Love the chorus
"Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain"
Last night in Bible Study Beth explained how our peace isn't found in answers but in allowing God to take over. I really needed to hear that because I think I attach peach to "answers" so often.
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