Happy Anniversary

Eight years ago today I married my best friend. What a crazy journey it has been! I don't even think we knew what love meant back then, but that has changed.

Today is bittersweet. I'm so happy to be celebrating another anniversary, but I can't help but think about Isaac being two weeks old today. I put on a bracelet this morning that Ethan and the kids got for me for Mother's Day this year. It had four bracelets that went together, and as they explained, there was one each for Allie, Emmie, Ryan, and the new baby. Not too long ago one of the bracelets broke and I didn't wear it for a while. When Allie saw it on me this morning she said, "Oh, yeah, mom. I remember that one of those broke and is gone. Now Isaac is gone too." She said it in a matter-of-fact way, but I could tell she was also sad.

A lot of people have asked me how the kids are doing; how they handled the news. The answer? I'm not sure I really know. The girls started talking in baby voices for a while but seem to be over that. Ryan got really clingy. Emmie seemed the least affected for a while, but she cried about her baby brother yesterday. She patted my stomach and asked "baby Isaac?". When I told her that he wasn't there anymore, she just burst into tears. She was okay after cuddling for a few minutes. It's so strange to see how grief affects the members of our family differently.

I'm not sure how we'll "celebrate" tonight. Probably just dinner out. We had this great plan to go to the waterpark, but I don't think the weather is going to allow it. It seemed like a good idea when it was hot. :)